diamondlife: (Join us - allqueericons)
Dear brain - nice time to spring this on me! I've not had a panic attack for, like, a year or more now (no, I moved onto the more subtle generalised anxiety, but even that's not been bad for a long time now). So why, then, did I wake up at about 2.30 this morning feeling like I was going to die? -_- Then when I eventually went back to sleep, I had nightmares (which I'm sure Ryo was involved in somehow, though I don't know how because I remember the dream and I don't remember him being there; but nevertheless, I feel sure he was involved!). The scary part is, there's no discernable reason - I've been incredibly cheerful and upbeat recently - in fact, some might say, annoyingly so! I've so many things I'm excited about! Why, then? That's the scariest part. I can't find a reason, so I always think "Is this really it, this time? Is my brain finally really going?"

That and, the last time my brain felt this wrong, I was very ill straight afterwards. -_- That's not something I ever want to happen again. Though I guess I felt bad in a different way, that time.

Especially, why did this have to happen when I'm going away next week? >:E

Profile

diamondlife: (Default)
diamondlife

December 2023

S M T W T F S
     12
3456789
10111213141516
17181920212223
24252627282930
31      

Syndicate

RSS Atom

Most Popular Tags

Page Summary

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios