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Apr. 7th, 2007 04:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
diamondlifeIt's amazing how much better one can feel after an unexpected trip to Preston. :3 Well, that and crazy men running around in seizure-inducing suits. (SHORTS. OH MY LORD, THE SHORTS. And a skirt. *rolls eyes*) I also woke up at 8.30, and even though it's a glorious day outside I wasn't quite prepared, lol, so I still lazed around until 1.30. ^^' And even then, most of the stuff I needed to do today was indoor stuff. Ah well, at least it's a bit more motivating and uplifiting when the sun is shining!
I ain't taking anything for granted, I'm going to try not to be devastated if this lift doesn't last that long, but for now I'm going to try and go easy on myself. It's funny, when I feel really really bad, there's absolutely no room for thinking at all, so I don't really suffer with negative thoughts; those come after, when I'm not concentrating so desperately on trying to just hold myself together. But this time, I'm going to try and not let negativity drag me back, because it can; I know I'm not the greatest person in the world, or even the greatest person I could be, but last time I tried really really hard to work on at least one bit of myself, so I'm going to try again. (Lol, dunno if it actually worked, and for that matter it might well be too late for a lot of people to reconsider me, even if I did manage to improve myself; but no, let's not think that, shall we? ^^')
I know there are things I won't ever be able to be or change, but mainly I can be happy with those being that way. Just, for the ones I can, try harder.
I don't even seem quite as ugly as usual! Or maybe I wasn't looking hard enough. XD
(Oh lord, that post was miles better when I composed it in my head earlier. XD I'm going to get a cup of tea [first of the day! :O] and sit in the garden and write. Though it's page-ruffling, skirt-lifting breezy out there!)
I ain't taking anything for granted, I'm going to try not to be devastated if this lift doesn't last that long, but for now I'm going to try and go easy on myself. It's funny, when I feel really really bad, there's absolutely no room for thinking at all, so I don't really suffer with negative thoughts; those come after, when I'm not concentrating so desperately on trying to just hold myself together. But this time, I'm going to try and not let negativity drag me back, because it can; I know I'm not the greatest person in the world, or even the greatest person I could be, but last time I tried really really hard to work on at least one bit of myself, so I'm going to try again. (Lol, dunno if it actually worked, and for that matter it might well be too late for a lot of people to reconsider me, even if I did manage to improve myself; but no, let's not think that, shall we? ^^')
I know there are things I won't ever be able to be or change, but mainly I can be happy with those being that way. Just, for the ones I can, try harder.
I don't even seem quite as ugly as usual! Or maybe I wasn't looking hard enough. XD
(Oh lord, that post was miles better when I composed it in my head earlier. XD I'm going to get a cup of tea [first of the day! :O] and sit in the garden and write. Though it's page-ruffling, skirt-lifting breezy out there!)
